To some extent, I cant say I didn't know. A kid can guess just as good as he can breathe- and sometimes a gut feeling is better than what you can read in a textbook. To some extent I knew, like my mom knows when Im lying, that when he left it was for good. But it wasn't like I was worried none, you can't be scared much cause its just a waste of your time. Still. To you, we were the ones that wanted you. And in the back of your mind you were writing away reasons that we shouldn't have stayed around. We gave you them and we wrote them up until you couldn't argue, and we expected you, somehow, to change things.

In your defense, nobody ever said you were a hero.